"The boys on the island vary of course, in numbers, according as they get killed and so on; and when they seem to be growing up, which is against the rules, Peter thins them out..." _{~JM Barrie}


Was wondering about this the other night, and tonight commented on it to my friends I call the lost boys. They all agreed with me, sadly enough. But the comparison is so deadly accurate it scares me...

For those of you who don't know me... at all, I suppose... this may creep you out slightly. But if you've ever met me you'd understand the following self-reference as Peter Pan.

I have many many good friends, probably more than I really consider a good friend. But my special group, the ones I depend on for everything and can always enjoy myself with, they're different. They're my lost boys. I've had different ones throughout the years, but when they grow up too much for me, I cull them and they're resigned to be regular friends.

Such as one friend I was extremely close to several years ago was complaining to me about their relationship and how they think they deserve some kind of 'break' in their life. Once upon a time, they were one of my lost boys. But now... they're not. It's like I watch them from a distance and wonder when they grew up on me. I don't rely on them anymore for anything. They're still my friend, I still interact with them and offer support, but something's changed.

It's not that they've gotten more mature or moved on or whatever else we gauge responsibility by. But they've lost something. Nothing as overused as their innocence and nothing as insincere as their magic... but something. Something that terrifies me to think I'll lose, something that I think my lost boys still have. And thinking of them now, I refuse to believe they'll lose that touch. But it's happened before... people I've cared deeply about were quickly culled and slid into a category where I still care about them but in a nonchalant way. Not the way I feel about my current 'lost boys'.

~deliriumdreamer3, =Loki-rei, *Lazuli24, K8, Mel, ~kosuke081, B...
and I'm attempting to steal away ~llamataco from his window.

Come on guys, it's time for our next adventure.

"I wanted you here, I wanted to show you
I wanted you near, I wanted to know you
There was a time when it seemed you would be
The change I longed for, someone for me

Open your eyes, c'mon what do you see
I can't be the person you want me to be!
Just tell me why do you ask me to change for you
Why should you want me to
And when did you believe I'd grow up your way
And do I have no say about me?"